First light
creeping through the dark to catch you unaware
like a ghost
a gleam in the corner of your eye
playing tricks with you
before appearing in full form
awake and alive
a new day
(A W Kearney 2022)
First light
creeping through the dark to catch you unaware
like a ghost
a gleam in the corner of your eye
playing tricks with you
before appearing in full form
awake and alive
a new day
(A W Kearney 2022)
Walking on Bones
Moving through our day to day
Walking on bones of dreams tossed away
Books left unwritten, houses unbuilt
Far lands unexplored, and blood spilt
We know not our path or destination
Yet, dream them up to pass the time
Till our real dream is shown
Our destination revealed
And our selves complete
A W Kearney 2022
Growing up is not only about getting older. In fact, age does not automatically translate to ‘grown up’. It’s also about finding yourself. The problem is, you’re a moving target. The real you is not always who you thought you were. It can change from one day to the next.
In truth: Who are today is not who will be tomorrow.
So, how can you achieve your dreams or even find them if you can’t even find yourself.
Our goals and dreams and aspirations change as we change. Our dreams are tossed away or lost and forgotten like sweatshirts. We can get new ones. Once in a while an old one happens to turn up in the back of the closet and can become a focus again. But most are left behind with our promises, intentions, and acquaintances.
Our life is a trail of debris.
If only we could capture that moment of connection
The fire and energy, all cosmic pieces fitting
That moment, that microsecond before rinsed away
By the wash of time, of thoughts and senses, living and life
Oh woe for the lines and lyrics, and visions lost
For want of a notebook
There are so many times that I’ve had a brilliant flash of inspiration only to have it vanish into of other thoughts. It’s frustrating to think that our lives are so very limited and the true sparks of the muse even more so. But yet we can watch them slip through our fingers so very very easily never to come again.
Yesterday’s coffee
Cold or reheated
Is never quite what we seek
No matter how steaming
Or ‘fixed’ up
It still lacks the warmth and comfort of fresh
Those elements must fume off and dissipate
Leaving a lesser liquid
With all the kick but none of the bliss
What remains is a faded interpretation
Of godly ambrosia
The aroma now dampened and muddy
Yet, still I hold you close
And sip your faded essence
To forego the waste of the perfect cup you were
I miss the stars of yesteryear
Before the emotions
Before the tears
Before the memories
When they were cold and crystal clear
I have found that too much familiarity can be a bad thing. Much of our enjoyment in life comes from our wonder at and awe of the unknown. Exploring and experiencing is life and as long as we can continue to seek new unknowns we can continue enjoying the awe and wonder.
But once we reach the point where everything in our life is familiar or a ‘been there, done that’ moment, we can only look back at our past and remember feeling those things. Like most things, it’s never quite as good as the first time.
I am fortunate to still be in the wonder and awe stage of my life. My wife and I are still exploring the world and chasing new experiences and new knowledge. We like to travel to more and more exotic places and try new foods and activities. I always strive to remain in wonder of the world and of the people around me. I am never bored, there are too many things to do and experience. I don’t watch much television because I have things I want to DO and experience and NONE of them are on television!
However, the excitement of discovery and experience can only survive a limited number of cycles before familiarity sets in. The wonders that once took your breath away can become mundane and ordinary. For example: How many of the people living in Denver still look out at the mountains with bated breathe? I love the mountains and am still in awe of them every time I see them. However, I also don’t see them Every Day!
There are people that actually LIVE IN ROME. What….??!!?! How could they not be in absolute awe of their surroundings every single day of their lives? I mean really?
Answer: They could see them every day of their lives. That’s how.
As I said: Too much familiarity can ruin the surprise or destroy the magic, destroy trust, taint emotion, and temper the awe and wonder of youth. As I get older I sense my wonder slackening. I am surprised by fewer movie twists or horrible news events because I’ve seen so many others. I don’t want to be that cynical old grump that frowns away my last years. I want to explore and wander and look up at the stars and breathlessly wonder at the mysteries of the universe.
PS: My wife and I are traveling to San Francisco on Friday. I’ve never been and am excited to explore. COVID is certain to put a damper on many of the activities we had planned (no Alcatraz, no Winchester House) but there will be plenty of hiking and scenery. And maybe some wine… We’ll see.
It has been a while since I’ve posted any poetry, which is sad because that was one of the reasons I started this page. However, I was under that mistaken belief that there was a paying market for poetry out there and that if you posted your work online, they wouldn’t take it. That part is actually true, but there is a minuscule market out there for poetry. So I decided that it wasn’t worth my time. I still love poetry and write it when I can, but I will be posting it here for the time being. Enjoy.
I wrote this poem for my grandson for his birth in 2014. I’ve only seen him a handful of times since. Life…
On Day One
Our first meeting
You fresh to the world
Still wet around the ears and scared
I smiled the worlds’ welcome
On Day One
You were all things
All potentials and possibilities
The seed of everything, anything
On Day One
Perched on the cusp of infinity
You were a multiverse at a point
An infinity, a singularity
You could be anything, go anywhere
With all of life before you
Please spread your wings and savor it all
For you will never be more free
Than on Day One
From here on the world closes in
It presses around you
Forms you
Controls you
Stereotypes you
No path is completely untraveled
No life without influence
After Day One
Forces will pull you
Warp you
Change you
So hold on to what you can of yourself
For only on Day One
Were you completely free and completely you